Haunted
Our fingers intertwine, eyes lock on each other
It’s a perfect, still moment so I snap a mental picture
I close my eyes and make a wish, a wish I still remember
While you carefully and skillfully disguise our hopeless future
The past and the present blur together
Ignorance sets in, I really should know better
Breathing in, breathing out
With every breath comes a sting of doubt
I desperately reach, you grasp my hand
Then release with a smile as I heartbreakingly land
You promised me, you promised me all
Now you gaze in contentment as you watch me fall
It’s clear now, I always wanted you more
You’re a liar, and a player, and you specialize in “ignore”
So why am I still fighting for a boy not yet a man,
Why do I still reach for your undependable hand?
Because you made me feel alive, you convinced me it was true
I’ve heard time heals all wounds, so let time heal me of you
I still become paralyzed by moments of a memory
I am forced to face reality, that you will always haunt me